Our Journey towards Parenting!

So less than a week after loosing our sweet baby, we had Jeremiah's first birthday party! We cleaned and decorated our behinds off in preparation for it! I was actually pretty nervous because I didn't want people to act weird around us. But was also kind of sad that nobody even mentioned it or gave us hugs. But it was nice to have a nice, fun day with family. It was what we needed after a rough week! People came a little early which was ok because we got to just sit around and talk. Jeremiah took a short nap before hand so he wouldn't be cranky during the party. Once he woke up and warmed up, he was loving the spot light! He was making goofy faces, playing peek-a-boo and just being a ham! We enjoyed a lovely lunch of bbq pork made by Matt, fruit salad, chips and fruit punch. After we all got done eating and had been talking awhile, the kids got us all going on a game of "don't let the balloons touch the floor!" It was quite entertaining for awhile and prett

I left off on friday night. That day and night the cramping and bleeding came and it went. In the evening, the bleeding had turned to red and we were really, really scared. I called my mom and she came up to be with Jeremiah and Matt took me into the ER. We spent a couple hours there, had a pelvic exam and an ultrasound. Everything pointed to good signs and we were sent off to go home and rest. Saturday went by so slowly. I cried off and on as the cramps were picking up and the blood was now consistently pink and red. I knew it was not a good sign. We tried holding on to every bit of hope we could. Sunday morning we woke early, spent the morning lounging around and went off to church. That morning we sang a new song but before we did, they played a video of the writer talking about how she wrote the song. It just so happened that it was about praising God after she gave birth at 23 weeks and her baby passing away. The tears flowed and flowed and flowed some more. I knew God was alread

I will try to write this as coherant as possible. This week that started out so great with celebrating Jeremiah's first birthday has ended in many, many tears, fears, and prayers. The beginning of the week started out fine. I was having a little cramping but thought nothing of it, since cramping is normal and I experienced it with Jeremiah. However, at times it was a little painful and felt like my period was going to start. On wednesday night, I just had a feeling something in me wasn't right. I didnt feel sick but felt very anxious. I put my worries aside and said some prayers. Thursday night (last night) I was getting ready to take a shower after Jeremiah had gone to sleep. I went to the bathroom and when I wiped, there was blood on the paper. I wasn't going to say anything, because once again, bleeding can be normal early on in pregnancy. I wiped again and there was more. I started to cry. I shut the water off and came back out to Matt and lost it. He immediately had

My dearest, sweet little Jeremiah, I can not believe that I am writing this letter to you the night before you turn one year old! Last year at this time, dad, grandma and I were all together, watching a movie. I was half paying attention but my brain was going a million miles an hour. After the movie, we went to bed because we knew we'd have a long couple days ahead of us. We had to wake up way before the sun to get ready to go to the hospital. Dad and I didn't sleep a wink. We arrived at the hospital nervous and very excited to finally meet you. While we were in the room, I was savoring your last few kicks and the last moments of it being just you and me. You arrived at 8:29am with the most beautiful little cry I have ever heard. I still remember saying to daddy "he's here!" Then I started to cry along with you...heck, I'm tearing up just remembering it! And now here we are, a year later. The year has been a long one, but it went by way too fast. We have

So in true Jeremiah fashion, just as I said he wasn't crawling yet, he decided to crawl the day after I made that last post. At first it took a lot of coaxing and cheering on, and he was very wobbly and toppled over a few times. Each time he crawls he gets more steady, goes a little further and it won't be long and he will be everywhere! I wrote it in his baby book but I'll write it here to. Jeremiah crawled at 10 months and 6 days old!

It's hard to believe but we no long have a baby in the single digit months! The past month was kind of a rough one. We fought another bad cold followed by 2 weeks of unexplained diarrhea. I mean the kid was blowing out diapers almost every 2 hours and we pretty much went through his whole closet of clothes from messes. We did go to the doctor but of course they had no idea what was going on, even after testing his poo. Thank God we are finally over it! I won't even mention the temper tantrums that he's started when he's not getting his way...but lord have mercy! Developmentally, still no crawling but he is so very close! He knows how to get to where he wants by rolling and scooting so I really think he thinks he doesn't need to crawl! He does use us to pull up to a stand and can use furniture to pull up on his knees. He's had a couple bloody tongues from slipping in the tub...poor baby :( Jeremiah has 5 teeth, 4 on the bottom and 1 on top. I did see that the

Time goes by way too fast!! Here is Jeremiah on November 1st, just 3 days old waiting to go home. He was 8 pounds 11 ounces and 20.5 inches. 9 months later!! He is a goofy, silly little boy with a sweet, loving personality. Now, he is 23.4 pounds and 29.5 inches long. Slow down!

I've been meaning to write about our trip to nebraska since we've gotten back, but life keeps me busy! I finally have a moment while Matt is putting Jeremiah to bed. So we left for Nebraska on July 2nd, leaving our house at 5:30am. We got the car packed the night before so all we had to do was wake up, get dressed and head out. We let Jeremiah sleep right until we walked out the door and I just left him in his pjs. He was awake for awhile but fell asleep quickly. We got to my mom's house and dropped off our dog Bella, and one of the cat's Malachi. We were back on the road shortly. We drove for about 3 hours and stopped in Dubuque for breakfast. Then drove 4 more hours, had lunch at a rest area, and then we made it into Lincoln by 4pm. We got checked into our hotel and hit the pool for a bit. Jeremiah is half fish, so he of course loved it. That evening, we had time to kill so we went to The Sunken Gardens . I had always wanted to go and we had a good time strolling th

Sorry I haven't written in awhile! We've had quite the busy month since I last wrote! Jeremiah now has two teeth on the bottom! They are so super cute and yet, I wish I still had a toothless baby!  At the moment, he has another cold (doctor told us over the phone it may be allergies), and is teething I believe 3 teeth. I can't feel anything yet but the gums are fairly swollen in certain places. When Jeremiah first got his cold, it was back to sleeping in the recliner or in the spare room on the mattress on the floor, and waking every 2-3 hours. There was one night where we were both too uncomfortable to sleep in the recliner so we headed to the spare room. I was on the big mattress and Jeremiah was laying propped up on a futon mattress. Jeremiah had woken up in the middle of the night, so I brought him up to me to calm him down. He fell asleep in my arms and since the mattress is only for one person, there wasn't much room to leave me comfortable sleeping with him o