One Year Ago Today!

One year ago today....
I woke up in the morning not feeling quite right. My abs felt like I had done a few hundred situps and they hurt! I had one cheap brand of pregnancy test in the bathroom and decided to take it, not expecting anything to show. And I got this...
 The line was just barely there but it was there. I had never even gotten anything close to that before. Matt couldn't really see it and my spirits were starting to crush. I decided to post a few pictures of the test on a forum that I was a part of. All the ladies there were saying that it was positive.

Mid-day, I decided to not use the bathroom and grab a better brand of test on my way home. Deep down, I knew that was it so I took the test in the store and got this...

Oh my I couldn't believe my eyes! I immediately took a picture with my cell and  sent it to Matt and then called him. The picture taken with the phone wasn't very good so poor Matt had to wait 45 minutes until I got home. On the way home, I called my mom. She thought I was lieing to her but I would never lie to her about that! 
I took a few more tests, including a digital one and smiled and grinned each time two lines or the word pregnant came up! Fast forward 5 weeks, and we finally got to see our baby for the first time!

And now, here he is at 16 weeks old! 
Jeremiah is the light of my life! He has filled my life with so much joy and I thank God everyday for him! Never before did I think a little boy could make my heart skip a beat with one smile, a giggle, or the way he wraps his arm around my neck and holds my cheek when he is going down for a nap. He tells me he loves me by smiling while trying to drink a bottle, smiling with tired eyes and wanting one last glance at mom. Never before did I think my heart would stop when you hear two doctors don't quite know what is going on with your child's skin. Never did I think I would panic waking up at 4am realizing he hasn't been up yet and then running down the stairs to check on him, only to find him perfectly safe and peacefully sleeping in his crib. Never did I think my heart would burst at the seams with each new skill learned. Never did I think I would fall so much in love and burst with pride while watching my husband go into daddy mode and do the most silly things trying to get just one laugh out of his son. Even though the nights are long, and the days can be longer, I want time to stop. He has grown so much and I want him to stay little forever. 

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