Our Journey towards Parenting!

So less than a week after loosing our sweet baby, we had Jeremiah's first birthday party! We cleaned and decorated our behinds off in preparation for it! I was actually pretty nervous because I didn't want people to act weird around us. But was also kind of sad that nobody even mentioned it or gave us hugs. But it was nice to have a nice, fun day with family. It was what we needed after a rough week! People came a little early which was ok because we got to just sit around and talk. Jeremiah took a short nap before hand so he wouldn't be cranky during the party. Once he woke up and warmed up, he was loving the spot light! He was making goofy faces, playing peek-a-boo and just being a ham! We enjoyed a lovely lunch of bbq pork made by Matt, fruit salad, chips and fruit punch. After we all got done eating and had been talking awhile, the kids got us all going on a game of "don't let the balloons touch the floor!" It was quite entertaining for awhile and prett

I left off on friday night. That day and night the cramping and bleeding came and it went. In the evening, the bleeding had turned to red and we were really, really scared. I called my mom and she came up to be with Jeremiah and Matt took me into the ER. We spent a couple hours there, had a pelvic exam and an ultrasound. Everything pointed to good signs and we were sent off to go home and rest. Saturday went by so slowly. I cried off and on as the cramps were picking up and the blood was now consistently pink and red. I knew it was not a good sign. We tried holding on to every bit of hope we could. Sunday morning we woke early, spent the morning lounging around and went off to church. That morning we sang a new song but before we did, they played a video of the writer talking about how she wrote the song. It just so happened that it was about praising God after she gave birth at 23 weeks and her baby passing away. The tears flowed and flowed and flowed some more. I knew God was alread

I will try to write this as coherant as possible. This week that started out so great with celebrating Jeremiah's first birthday has ended in many, many tears, fears, and prayers. The beginning of the week started out fine. I was having a little cramping but thought nothing of it, since cramping is normal and I experienced it with Jeremiah. However, at times it was a little painful and felt like my period was going to start. On wednesday night, I just had a feeling something in me wasn't right. I didnt feel sick but felt very anxious. I put my worries aside and said some prayers. Thursday night (last night) I was getting ready to take a shower after Jeremiah had gone to sleep. I went to the bathroom and when I wiped, there was blood on the paper. I wasn't going to say anything, because once again, bleeding can be normal early on in pregnancy. I wiped again and there was more. I started to cry. I shut the water off and came back out to Matt and lost it. He immediately had